Zuzana Bílková

* 1951

  • "My only conflict was in fourth grade when we competed in remembering to bring our pioneer scarves. I wasn't brought up for that; my parents even refused to go to the scarf ceremony when we were given our pioneer scarves at the Klement Gottwald Museum with terrible speeches and all. My parents refused to go, and to me it did not mean an accessory or anything. There were three rows of desks. I forgot it once, which ruined the score for our row, and a classmate slapped me. But that was about it. Other than that, the teachers were totally fine."

  • "My mother was pregnant with me, which must have been very difficult for her in prison. She went through harsh interrogations, as in she was interrogated for two nights straight with no sleep and almost no rest. She had open tuberculosis, as it was called at the time. She was born in 1921, she was on total deployment at Avia and got pneumonia. She suffered from complications, I can't say exactly what. Then she had pulmonary edema and then developed tuberculosis. In 1954, President Zápotocký announced an amnesty for female political prisoners who were mothers with children or seriously ill. She was both. So she came home on 16 November 1954."

  • "The labour went so bad that even though it was a Sunday, they got the prison commander to give permission for my mother to be taken to Apollinář where I was eventually born, albeit with a guard on standby. Mummy had a guard behind her head. When it was two o'clock, they put us in the Black Mary and took us back to Pankrác, where there was a ward for newborns. That's good too... Remember, there was no Nusle Bridge yet, so we drove all over Prague to get back from Apolinář to Pankrác."

  • "They then called us and we went to the prisoner who was often behind glass or a wire mesh. The prison in Bory had a small playroom for children in the waiting room, which still fascinates me. There was a little tin airplane and those wooden blocks that you know, that you can put together into pictures, so that children wouldn't get bored while waiting for their dads or moms or other relatives. To this day I still find it very ironic."

  • "Sadly, my parents' health was impaired. My mother came home under amnesty when I was three years old, on 16 November 1954; grandmother wrote that down carefully. She came back with active tuberculosis, and she was treated for it in two sanatoriums around Bohemia for the next three years. The last was in Žamberk near Hradec Králové where she underwent the same operation as President Havel did with cancer, only she had tuberculosis. They basically took a piece of her lungs away to save her. My father came back from prison after nine years with impaired eyesight, which was not treated at all, and in the end he had only residual vision."

  • "The birth somehow didn't go well the day I was born. You know, we called it a joint at home, not a prison, but a joint. It was a Sunday, and the prison warden, as my mother always told me, allowed my mother to be transferred to the maternity ward at Karlov where I was born that afternoon. I lived with my mother for about two months in the prison at Pankrác after that, but then I got sepsis, or blood poisoning, because of course there were no conditions for a small child of two months, and thanks to my grandparents, my mother's parents, who guaranteed to take care of me, even though they were over sixty years old, I was released from the prison - in quotation marks I should say - to a sanatorium in Podolí."

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I was born with a guard breathing on my back

Zuzana Bílková in her childhood
Zuzana Bílková in her childhood
photo: Witness's archive

Zuzana Bílková was born in Prague on 23 September 1951. Her mother Anna Vlková had been imprisoned in Pankrác since March of that year, and Zuzana lived with her mother in a cell after her birth. Two months later she fell ill with blood poisoning and had to be treated in a sanatorium in Podolí. She was brought up by her grandparents, the Vlks. Her father Antonín Janoušek and uncle Jan Vlk also ended up in prison. Her mother was in prison until 1954 and her father until 1960. Both returned with health problems and Zuzana had to help to support the family. Both of her parents were rehabilitated by court in 1968. After graduating from high school, she studied library science and worked as an IBM operator for 17 years. She is married with a son and two grandsons. She lived in Prague in 2024.